13 August 2014
Dread was the first feeling upon hearing my mother's hysteric cries, "Nani, Obek Mona is no more. Please come home." It was hard to register. Just, hard. I was shell shocked and couldn't answer my colleagues' questions properly. All of them eventually reminding me to drive home safely, and all my brain could register was, "She's gone?"
Sure, I'm not close to my aunt. My aunt is the third of my mother's siblings to have bid adieu. Now with her departure, my Mum will now be the eldest of the remaining siblings. It's scary come to think of it. In 2012, it was her eldest brother. In 2013, it was her younger sister, and now 2014, her eldest sister.
But now, being home and recounting the day's events, I realised I didn't shed a single tear at my cousins' lost. Not even numb. I just wanted the whole funeral to be done and over with. And if anything, I was worried about my Mum, not my aunt's four children or her uncountable number of grandchildren. I didn't care about their feelings, I was selfishly just worried for my Mum.
Throughout the trip to the cemetery earlier in the evening, I kept my eyes on her. And I find it ironic how the only reason that made my heart wrenched was the sight of my Mum's two remaining brothers each holding her on either side. The three remaining descendants of the Ali generation.
Sure, I was the first of their second generation to have lost a parent. I lost my father when I was 4 years old, back in 1989 due to leukaemia. So seeing my other cousins losing their parents... as cruel as it may sound, I didn't feel pity for them. Yes, probably I am heartless. But it's like a 'been there, done that' situation for me.
I've been told once that perhaps I feel that way because I didn't get to experience the love of two parents at one time because I lost my Dad when I was way too small. To an extent, I agree. But they forget that they didn't had to grow up going to school, seeing your schoolmates chirping happily with their two parents. Getting odd sympathetic looks from your teachers when you had to explain to them you didn't get two signatures on your report cards because your father's dead. Didn't had anybody to give a card to when your Art and Crafts teacher asked the class to make something for Father's Day.
Innocent I was as a kid. I grew up with a struggling single mother who tried to manage work, home, and a growing child.
The last moment of my father that I remember vividly (strangely enough) was my father on his deathbed, staring back at me. And when I told his sister, "Look! Papa's looking at me. Can't you see? He's alive, he's looking at me." But alas, it was a spiritual and miracle, god-sent moment that only a child of 4 years of age could see. I remember none of the adults believed my words as they told me that my father's dead. How can his eyes be opened and be looking at me? That moment is still etched in my memories, and would always bring a wistful smile on my face. Thank you, Papa. For making me the special last person that you see.
So coming back to the day's events. Yes. I'm worried for my Mum. I guess we both are worried for each other. She, either the fear of leaving me, or me leaving her. But fact is fact. Death is only just the beginning.
So I end this post with a note, rest in peace, Obek Mona.
Song: Tum Hi Ho ~ Aashiqui 2
28 September 2013
Being seated right in front of your supervisor and around newbies does not help either. Your supervisor will definitely come to the nearest alley (myself) and the newbies who are much more comfortable asking questions with me (since the others are either too old or seated far away). That's beside the fact that I can't even sit down and do my paperwork in peace. Every now and then my phone rings non-stop from these bloody doctors. Gosh! If only I could bang my head on the desk out loud every now and then.
I feel like escaping to a whimsical and colourful land for these three months; bringing along my 'life gadgets' -- my iPhone, laptop, chargers... and if possible, my cable TV to watch my daily soaps. Heh!
Okay, enough with the randomness and my job rants... New iPhone!! No. I did not get a new iPhone. Took me days to finally decide. Initially, I thought there was only one version of iPhone releasing: iPhone 5C. But only a day before the announcement did I learnt that there were going to be two, 5C and 5S. Ha! I'm such a late bloomer. Thing is, I found that the features are only slightly different from my current iPhone 5.
So eventually, I only upgraded to iOS 7. But once iPhone 6 is out, I'll definitely be getting one. I need a bigger storage, and of course, a new number. I'm loving the iOS 7 though. Finally I get to block certain numbers from calling me. Hehe!
Song: Maara Re ~ Ferrari Ki Sawaari
07 September 2013
There are times where I get cropped mentions due to these bimbos who continued their Twitter conversation through incessant quoted RTs. The legitimate way of conversing in a group is simply mentioning your name on the back or the front of the tweet. You don't just leave and continue your tweets until they're automatically cropped out in the end. Stupid fucktarts!
Anyways, looks like my iPhone 5's storage is waning with every stuff I added in. I promised, the next iPhone I'll get will be one with the largest storage. Too bad iPhone 6 is a long way to go. Even the upcoming iPhone 5C has no official release date. But I guess, I will be getting this 5C version. I seriously need a bigger storage.
Song: Sunn Raha Hai ~ Aashiqui 2
09 May 2013
But even after facing shit at work every single day, I kept my loyalty for my favourite evening TV show on Channel V... Yup, 'Suvreen Guggal'. It's currently on its second season. Truth to be told, it's not as fun as the first season, but the story is still quite gripping. Even with the many new characters, the story is still engaging; unlike the previous show I was addicted to -- 'Humse Hai Liife'. That show precipitated ever since new strangers were roped in.
Unfortunately, none of the Indian channels produce DVD box sets of their popular TV shows. It tanks really. And seeing that my cable set-top box HDD only has a limited disk space, I had no choice but to delete the old episodes one by one. Hence currently I'm slowly re-recording all the episodes by editing and scraping off the ugly TV ads on my video editing software.
I only wish the channel would re-telecast the show from the first episode as soon as the show ends later. They are doing it for some of the old shows on the channel. The first 60 episodes of 'Suvreen Guggal' I have in hand are of awful quality since I had to download them through YouTube, and none of them are of HD quality. *pouts*
And oh! When's the next iPhone coming out again? Seriously, the next time I get a new iPhone, I'll get one with the biggest storage. My current 16GB iPhone 5 is now almost full since I kept storing loads and loads of videos... with high quality. Hehe! Yeah, I have been told, "Why don't you just move on to Samsung Galaxy?" ...Uh no! I'm a loyalist. I'll stick to my Apple iPhone, thank you very much!
By the way, I'd just updated my scrapbooking blog earlier today with a new page for Yuvreen. Quite liked how it looked like. I had initially wanted it to look all yellow, but ended up making it all colourful.
Song: Jaane Nahin Denge Tujhe ~ 3 Idiots
24 March 2013
Anyway, the last Sims' household I created was what I've been planning to make for the past couple of weeks -- Suvreen Guggal's friends. Yeah. Haha! I already have Suvreen and her (now) husband, Yuvraj Singh staying in one house (with a female butler who for some reason walks around the house naked). And then there's Rehaan Charles and his nephew, Vivaan who live in another house.
But for a couple of days, I saved an empty house just in front of Suvreen's for her best friends -- Annie, Naro, Zorro, Rathi and Mannu. I tried my very level best to match the characters' faces with the real actors. Some were good, whilst some just reek... unfortunately. Click on the Sims' picture for a better full view.
Now you must be wondering, what about those two main characters -- Yuvraj and Suvreen? Honestly! I'm still so unsatisfied with the both of them that I don't think I will blog their Sim profiles until they look at least 90% accurate. Every single time I'm in the game, I will always try to improve their faces.
So I guess that's about my Sims characters. Coming to the general game, I've been facing some unfortunate bugs playing it ever since I downloaded a couple of custom mods. Some of my Sims have missing butlers and maids. And then of course, some of my Sims take showers with clothes on. It gets pretty frustrating. But the mods are so important that I don't have the heart to take them away.
The fact that I hire butlers for every single household... Ha! And 80% of all my Sims are jobless. Thanks to the 'motherlode' cheat code, all my Sims are living in luxury. Haha!
Song: Kaise Mujhe ~ Ghajini
09 March 2013
I've bought a new laptop to replace my quite recent one which was simply said -- jinxed. My previous laptop's screen cracked exactly 3 days after I purchased it due to my carelessness. Issh!! What a waste. As the crack worsen, I decided to finally get a brand new one entirely. The intention to bring it to its manufacturer to replace its broken screen has long been forsaken. It's too far away in Alexander.
The only main problem I'm facing right now with my new laptop is familiarizing with the new Windows 8. Gosh! Everything seems so jumbled up. At times, I couldn't even tell which programs were running in my background. Had to resign with the old CTRL+ALT+DEL.
Anyways, as I've made it apparent on my Twitter, I'm still rather addicted to this Hindi TV serial on Channel V India -- 'Suvreen Guggal'. It's been my obsession since mid-June last year. And I DO mean obsession. The main couple, Yuvraj Singh and Suvreen Guggal, lovingly known as 'Yuvreen' is all I can think about all day... every day!!
I'm happy that the show is finally reaching its 1 year anniversary this 19th March. Its first episode was aired on this day last year. I can't believe I used to scoff at the show during its first few months, only to find myself so attached to it 3 months later. Shameful, really! It's the best show so far on that channel.
Seriously, seriously hope that the makers will think of marketing DVD box sets of the whole complete episodes once the show's over. The fact that I'm dreading every single day that my cable set-top box will go haywire and all my recorded episodes will go, 'POOF'... Ugh! Seriously need to find a way to transfer them all somewhere safe; with the high quality intact. I'm actually thinking of getting a television with that USB recording feature thingy. My current LCD television is an old version. Think we got it back in 2006.
Oh! Well, I guess that's it for now. I'll be off playing my Sims 3 game with my Yuvraj and Suvreen Sims characters. Hehe! I already got them married in my game. By far the most romantic couple in my Sims town. They even initiated everything on their own. Ah! They've learnt well...
Song: Iktara ~ Wake Up Sid
23 September 2012
So far I'm digging the new iPhone. Although like I tweeted, a lot of the old apps need to be updated to suit the new tall screen. And that's aside, apparently many people are experiencing problems syncing their old music and videos from their iTunes library. I've tried everything and they still fail to sync. *sighs* I guess I'll just wait until Apple put up some step-by-step guide to overcome that problem.
I can't begin to tell you what's best about the iPhone, but yeah. The new panorama feature in the camera app is wicked. It's very user friendly as compared to those individual panorama apps you download on iStore. It'll even tell you to slow down if you moved your camera too quickly. Even the HDR feature is awesome. I now look at my old digi camera with a shame. Honestly, my iPhone 5 will be enough to shoot HD photos.
Song: Ya Rabba ~ Salaam-E-Ishq